The Song

Lagu ini bungcud sekali hahaha merangkum satu cerita dengan simpel aja sih, tapi ngena, at least di saya. Sampe bela-belain ngetik di komputer kantor karena hengpon canggih aku sudah tak punya huwo huwooh...
Ini lagu mangtaps nya di dengerin sambil liat MV nya sih, ekspresi penyanyi itu mewakili sekali.



"It was only a smile but my heart it went wild
And I wasn't expecting that
Just a delicate kiss, anyone could've missed
I wasn't expecting that
Did I misread the sign? Your hand slipped into mine
I wasn't expecting that
You spent the night in my bed, you woke up and you said
"Well, I wasn't expecting that"

I thought love wasn't meant to last,
I thought you were just passing through
If I ever get the nerve to ask
What did I get right to deserve somebody like you?

I wasn't expecting that
It was only a word, it was almost mis-heard
'Cause I wasn't expecting that
But it came without fear, a month turned into a year
And I wasn't expecting that

I thought love wasn't meant to last,
I thought you were just passing through
If I ever get the nerve to ask
What did I get right to deserve somebody like you?
I wasn't expecting that

Isn't it strange how a life can be changed
In the flicker of the sweetest smile
We were married in spring
You know I wouldn't change a thing
Without an innocent kiss, what a life I'd have missed,

If you'd not took a chance on a little romance
When I wasn't expecting that
Time doesn't take long, three kids up and gone
And I wasn't expecting that
And when the nurses they came, said its come back again
I wasn't expecting that
Then you closed your eyes, took my heart by surprise
And I wasn't expecting that!"
-Jamie Lawson- Wasn't expecting that-

Life Crisis

Sebenarnya udah lama ngeh kalo sedang ngalamin krisis. I have issues. Insecurity, some low self esteem and soon. Datengnya pasang surut, nyama-nyamain pasang surut emosi. Sampe lelah, tapi ga kurus. Padahal kalo lelah, maunya bisa kurusan sekilo dua kilo yes. Tapi tolong kurusan di bagian kaki dulu *rikues

Quarter life crisis adalah hantu kampret yang susah banget dihalau, bikin galau berlebihan. Insekyur berlebihan. Airmata sama ingus bercecer kalo lagi badai-badainya. Sigh.
Berkali-kali bilang enough, tapi dia balik lagi. Mesti bilang e-fucking-nough dulu ape?

I am 25 yo and have nothing to show it off adalah perasaan kampret sedunia yang aku alamin sebenernya dari taun lalu. That masa nganggur kills all my confidence. Sampe tinggal kaleng-kalengan.
My boyfriend really sick about this topic. Udah capek dia kayanya, punya cewek yang ditangisin itu- itu mulu.

Kalo kata wiki yes, quarter life crisis itu young, insecure and depressed *tears

Terus sempat nemu dan baca artikel dari Buzzfeed soal 25 signs youre having a quarter life crisis. No satunya aja langsung bikin antuk jidat sampe ga jenong lagi.

"Youre turning 25 this year"
- that's me! Eek kuda sekali

We will skip no 2 sampe 5 sebab ga ngerasa gitu-gitu amat. Aku ga bingung soal the concept of being twentysomething vs adult. Juga ga denial soal umur. Umur 25 ngaku-ngaku 18. Ga kok. Walau kenyataan muka sama badan masih kek anak sekolahan muahahaha. Terus ga ada masalah sama drinking habit dan hangover. Paling pernah hangover kalo abis nonton pelem, hangover laki ganteng *Mike...mike...

"You start to really care about things you never thought before"
-ok..ok..i am.

No 7 dan 8 soal relationship. Everything is fine. Kecuali buat beberapa orang rese yang sampe kemarin masih suka nanya "kapan kawin". Sekarang sih udah ga merasa terganggu lagi dengan pertanyaan itu. Kalo ga kan pasti uda dengan sadis jawabnya "nanya mulu, emang mau bayarin biayanya?". Tapi katanya kita ga boleh sadis gitu ya sama orang, walaupun yang nanya itu juga sadis sih. Tapi mereka sadisnya entah kenapa dibenarkan masyarakat.

"Constantly go back and forth between going overseas to explore vs building career"
- *sobs...what career? I barely have one hiks

"Cause going overseas= experience a whole new world, building career= climb that corporate ladder"
-but, travelling= need money, Bro!

Lets skip number 12 till 14...

"And as much as you try to stick to a budget,sometimes managing your own money just sucks"
- SUCKS! Kebangkrutan seminggu setelah gajian.

"Losing touch with some friends is just an inevitable thing that will happen and you’re still learning to deal with that."
- It was. Now, nah nah... *kibas rambut

"As well as dealing with the second-hand jealously of the friends who can afford to travel regularly."
- YES! ME WANT IT! AARGHHH

i jump to number 23 and 24 which are...
" So you go on huge “seize the moment!” rampages...Which promptly ends a week later."
-Totally utterly rite



"And you start saying phrases like “remember five years ago, when we were in college…” and that will always trip you out."
-oh maaan

Sedang berusaha keras keluar dari isu ini. Doakan aku yes!
*penutup yang apa banget sekali

Tidur

Tidur itu obat penenang.
Tempat marah diredam, jadi akhir dari sedih tak berujung.
Tempat kecewa karena harapan-harapan yang ketinggian dilupakan.
Tempat sesal dipinggirkan.
Tidur mendamaikan berisiknya pikiran, sesaknya perasaan.
Aku coba tidur.

Short Letter

Dear cita- cita yang kutunda,

Tolong sampaikan pada penyesalan agar jangan titip salam dulu, aku belum siap.

Tertanda,
Dari aku yang terus berdoa, agar rasa yakin tetap ada.

Hangover

I have suffered from a book hangover, a lot. But those books, they made the worst one.

Book hangover:  inability to move on from a book cos you're so into the character or story.

In this case, i am soooo into the character. The psycho-mad- fucked up- possesive but ,i dont know maybe i am insane, oh so lovely.

Sue me!

Almost a year and still cant move on *sigh sigh

This trilogy will always be my guilty pleasure *LOL

I want to buy the physical book, since i read the ebook version. But my to-buy-list is endless now...

Well, actually im so dead bored in my office thats why i post this, with limited english of moi.

Can someone save me? Do you have something interesting? Pleaseeee...

Morning Routine

My morning routine for almost 3 years:
Nelponin a man, so called adult, who always turns into a big baby boy everytime i wake him up :))

Maybe i should use a whip so he will wake up immediately *smirk

When "kapan kawin" Question Reached A Whole New Level

So, di lebaran ini, sudah berapa orang yang nanyain "kapan kawin?" ke kamu?

Aku ga ada (lagi) dong *sombong*
LOL orang-orang uda capek kali ya nanyain itu mulu trus cuma dapet jawaban mesem-mesem doang.

Tapi tapi,the sodara-sodara itu malah bikin inovasi baru, daripada sekedar nanya kapan kawin question.

"*salam*
Ini yang abis lebaran mau itu ya?
*bengong*
Iya,mau itu..nikah...
*melongo*"

Bahkan ada yang langsung nodong klarifikasi karena denger kabar yang dibawa burung kalo diriku ini sedang nyari gedung buat resepsi... Fabulus sekali.

Anak tetangga depan lahiran H+1 lebaran, harusnya tekanan itu nambah ya? Tapi saya nya malah berasa lebih santai dari pada sebelum-sebelumnya.
Santai, soalnya masih banyak yang mau dilihat, masih banyak yang dipengenin...
Dan masih ga terima kalo besok itu Rabu, liburnya berakhir dong.
Kembalikan liburanku!